bus' blog
The great unnecessary lock in vol. 2 馬上開始！
I have a great burden to carry; it appears i must move a mountain. But this time, it serves a purpose (even if that purpose is as greedy as pure self ideation).
I used to think i had a duty towards my parents to make money. It has since dawned on me that this was only ever desire; if not as unsimplistic as a primitive desire for money then at least a desire for duty, that ever seductive quality.
They say that working in investment banking is equivalent to a weeklong headache. I have a headache right now, but somehow i want more.
Some things are like car crashes; you can't look away. Other things drag you in with them. To change path quickly, is that more like which one?
The question now is whether they will let me get dragged in with them; Apparently this headache competition is really competitive. Many people vie for this particular type of headache because they've all heard the same thing: that it is life changing.
I mean, a life-changing headache? Who wouldn't want that? If it was that easy everyone would do it, i suppose. But some people still wouldn't. I am unsure if i am delusional. But maybe delusion is a practical tool. Its not like i want to be a rockstar or something.
I just want to make money for my parents' retirement and my future childrens' future.
10月11日26年.